Being new to the blogsphere, I'll start with what comes first and that's usually a bit about the writer. I realised after completing the preliminaries that the name of my blog sounds as though it has a religious connotation. I'd like to say that I myself do not belong to a religion and perhaps in a later post I will explain my feelings more thoroughly. I'm young, and a lot of what I hope to write about will be about growing up and what I experience, but I will try not to bore anyone reading with too much of what my generation is generally accused of. Other than that I guess it's up to you to see what I'm like!
On wanting to start a blog I thought of a few names, and whilst I may not stick with this one, I think it that this one matches where I am right now. Whilst growing up I'm constantly looking for different things which interest me and which make me passionate, and I think that means I'm finding myself. I hope soon to travel the world and find new ways to find myself.
For today, I found myself, unfortunately, in a book that I'm reading by Thomas Hardy. For my English A level I've had to read a lot of books which I wouldn't normally pick up which has been an interesting experience. Far From The Madding Crowd, although I haven't finished it yet, is a great book but what I'm more interested in writing about is the leading lady, Bathsheba. It's very rare that I have any particular reaction to a character in a book, however I cannot help but hate Bathsheba, more so because I recognise some of my own character flaws in her. The plot of the story revolves around Bathsheba and the men who she persuades to love her. When they do love her, and ask to marry her, she rejects them because she can not love them in return, or is scared to. She is vain to a huge extent and only acts this way because she is not used to men not noticing her and does anything to change that.
I did something similar with a guy last year and have ended up quite lonely because of it, and I spent a lot of time blaming other people for the way I acted, but after reading what I have of this book I realised that I'm just vain! I wanted him to notice me for the wrong reasons, only to inflate my ego. I have spent some time trying to make the effort to get him back, but I don't know if that's further vanity because I'm angry at being forgotten. What do you think?
